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I am exactly the person I want to be


Here I am running along the beach with my dogs at sunset in a beautiful country with my husband of 24 years.

Who am I?

I am exactly the person I want to be.

How did I get to this place?

By listening deeply to my soul.

I am exactly the person I want to be, because I would want to come to me if the 'shit hits the fan'. I would want to sit with my kindness and openness and bask in that for days. I would want my hand holding and hugs, the heart felt empathy and compassion plus I make the best chai tea and I can bake vegan, gluten free, sugar free scones that taste better than the real thang.

I am exactly the person I want to be, because when I am on fun form I wouldn't want to be anywhere else, no-one lights up a conversation like 'fun Jen', she is a cracker.

I am exactly the person I want to be, because when I feel fragile and want to crawl into a cave, I allow that. I refuse to punish or demand it be different. No, I hunker down and bring pillows and tarot cards and I get really still.

I am exactly the person I want to be because I still have so much curiosity for life and how it works and its twists and turns and I love that I am like that...still.

I am exactly the person I want to be, because I see how brave I am when sometimes I feel nervous and frightened . I see how now I cheerlead and encourage instead of name call and threaten, the way it used to be.

I am exactly the person I want to be because I am deeply loyal as a partner and that means I have committed to showing up and being open to looking at what part of the mess is mine.

I am exactly the person I want to be because I have loved and cared for my children to the best of my abilities and I keep showing up to watch these incredible Masterpieces unfold and unfurl into life their way, not mine and that is a miracle I will never stop being grateful for.

This is the day, the week, the year that I am exactly the person I want to be and I love that.

This week I am on soul vacation. It means I get to watch, indulge, and read everything that feels truly soulful to me.

Learning to listen to our soul is a sacred art and in the next few months I will be creating more content to support that process of leading from our soul.

In the meantime if you need any hand holding or empathy, reassurance or guidance you know where I am

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